Right now I feel the need to list what I do have when my mind seems so distracted by what I don’t have.
I am thankful/grateful for:
My wonderful mother and father in law. You two have been taking care of Magnus for quite awhile now and I don’t know what Chris and I would do without you. Magnus has grown so much in your care and he is blessed to have you as grandparents.
My beautiful, hilarious, amazing, fantastic son Magnus. You are growing so much and somehow my heart gets bigger everyday with the love I have for you. I have learned so much having you in my life and I will strive to be the best person I can be for you.
My husband Chris. It has been so tough lately and I am glad I can be by your side. I will always be here for you. You are an amazing father, my best friend, and the best cook I have ever met. Honestly, you gotta beat this cancer crap because our son will face a lifetime of substandard meals otherwise! Being in your life and wanting to be the best wife I can has made me look at myself in new ways and change some of my not so great habits. My love for you and your love for me has made me a better person.
All of the wonderful friends and family that have shown support in so many ways during this time. I am slowly learning how to let myself ask for help and reach out; without all of the support you have shown I would be a miserable wreck at this point.
Cancer is a miserable beast that has darkened my world; but I will not, I must not, let it envelop me. I have no control over this disease, but I have control over myself.
ad astra per aspera 
It is hard to know so many intimate details about your struggle and Chris's trials but I must say….thank you Dearest Dandy….because I am in awe of your ability to express and illustrate such a complicated and heart wrenching ordeal. It's amazing to me. You are amazing to me. You are a stunning example of what can be told when one is analytical enough to absorb, process, and recount all the medical details. Then you are also honest and open enough to display your feelings, frustrations. and your hurt, along with your triumphs and your growth.
I think of you both every day….repeatedly. I feel overcome with even an ounce of your pain…just the tip of the iceberg that you endure.
You might not feel like it now, or often, or consistently enough…but you have strength and wisdom far beyond your years. You have character that most can only aspire to, and other have no way of even knowing that they should aspire to it. You are gifted and we are all blessed to take this journey with you.
Thank you for all that you are, all that you do, all that you put forth, and all your striking integrity.
You Sister, are one kick ass chick….and I love ya.
Don't give up. Ever.
It is hard to know so many intimate details about your struggle and Chris's trials but I must say….thank you Dearest Dandy….because I am in awe of your ability to express and illustrate such a complicated and heart wrenching ordeal. It's amazing to me. You are amazing to me. You are a stunning example of what can be told when one is analytical enough to absorb, process, and recount all the medical details. Then you are also honest and open enough to display your feelings, frustrations. and your hurt, along with your triumphs and your growth.
I think of you both every day….repeatedly. I feel overcome with even an ounce of your pain…just the tip of the iceberg that you endure.
You might not feel like it now, or often, or consistently enough…but you have strength and wisdom far beyond your years. You have character that most can only aspire to, and other have no way of even knowing that they should aspire to it. You are gifted and we are all blessed to take this journey with you.
Thank you for all that you are, all that you do, all that you put forth, and all your striking integrity.
You Sister, are one kick ass chick….and I love ya.
Don't give up. Ever.
I forgot about my awesome nickname Dandy!!! It sure does make me smile and so do your sweet wonderful words.
I am doing the best I can and just want to make it thru this hell!
I forgot about my awesome nickname Dandy!!! It sure does make me smile and so do your sweet wonderful words.
I am doing the best I can and just want to make it thru this hell!
You will. You're a good 'un.
You will. You're a good 'un.