The bone marrow test is painful beyond words for Chris. He dreads these painful procedures and has lots of anxiety leading up to them. Thankfully it is a quick procedure.
I talked to his Dr. after it was over to get a little more info about what the test looks for. He said they are basically looking for anything that can explain why his levels are not going up. He said that his bone marrow could be depleted which could be the result of his lymphoma spreading to his marrow or he could also have a whole new type of cancer. Shit.
I did not share this info with Chris or his family. There is no reason to scare Chris and information like that will not reassure his family while we wait for results. His Dr. said maybe results by tomorrow afternoon but it seems like the results always take longer than they think so I’m going to count on Friday at the very earliest.
Waiting waiting, it seems like one of the few new constants in our lives.
It’s been wonderful to have so many people sharing the link to Chris’ donation blog. We are both quite private people by nature. I have my facebook profile hidden from searches and various other private blocks set in place. Due to past experiences with various assholes that we would rather not have privy to our lives we keep most things restricted. Chris and I have also had some pretty dramatic incidents (understatement!) in our past and some of those people who we were friends with during that time we no longer have contact with. Both because they weren’t very good friends and neither were we.
So with this public blog page I’ve chosen to not state our last names or our son’s name. I know we are in a position where we need help but I am sooooo not used to asking for it and even less used to getting it. It’s left me feeling a little whorey and vulnerable, but such is life. I’ll get over it and I will especially be so very fucking thankful for every single cent or whatever any generous person donates.
Fucking asshole cancer, I’m sooooooo fucking sick of your disgusting mean unrelenting face.
ad astra per aspera 